Making Small Changes

31 August 2018

I want to share something with you. Something I feel that I have kept a secret for quiet a while. Well, only my immediate family and a few close friends may only know about. For about 3 years, I've suffered from an unhealthy gut. It all started with GERD and acid reflux. Normally, I thought it was due to pregnancy so I dealt with it. A few years went by and I ended up in the ER with pain in my stomach. I found out during that visit that I had "fatty liver" the Physician asked me if I was a drinker. I told them no, I wasn't. They then referred me to see a GI doctor. I went, not really knowing what to expect. During that visit, the Physician tested me for everything under the sun. I soon found that my body couldn't tolerate diary, gluten and soy. All things I consumed! I was shocked and a bit hurt because I heavily depended on eggs, cheese and milk. They finally told me that I could still have those things, but not often. I immediately felt that I could substitute milk for lactose milk, I stopped eating cheese and eggs, I decided to keep.  

Fast forward to 2018, the pain now is like a mole that I can't get rid of. I couldn't shake it no matter what I did.  I'm in a state of constant pain. But I continued to smile but at night I would just cry. I would get up every morning and start over again. This type of pain would play with your mind. It will have you feeling like you're slowly dying and there is nothing you can do. People are walking around like life is great and here I am sitting in a dark room feeling numb. There was nothing my kids or husband could do to make me feel better. Ashon begged me to go see a doctor. I felt that in doing so would be pointless. Why? Because all they do is push medicine down your throat and send you home with a bill. I'm telling him "There has to be a natural way for my body to heal itself!" I started my new job in February and realized that being in this condition + the added stress and long work hours only made it worse. My mood worsen, I became fatigued, I gained MORE weight, I was more emotional and I didn't want to be around anyone. If anyone felt that I was unapproachable, it was probably 99.98% true. Ha! 

Fast forward to August 2018, something clicked. I was sleeping way too much, my headaches were more frequent, sometimes daily, and I had body aches. I cried and cried and prayed. I'd just turned 37 on July 30th and I promise the next day I felt that I'd aged 10 years. I ended up seeing a doctor the next week. My 45 minute appointment ended up being a 2 hour appointment. There was so much going on with me that my Physician was spinning. She prescribed meds for anxiety & stressed, recommended that I started taking melatonin at night to help me sleep, she referred me to a Nutritionist. My blood pressure was high and yet, she still couldn't figure out my gut pain. She pressed on my stomach a little and I literally almost jumped off the table. She was like... "Wow, you are very tender in this area!" Then she proceeded to write down all of my symptoms.  I advised her that the pain comes and goes. Some days are better than others depending on what I eat (crying my eyes out at the time...). She needed more info so that's was the first day of what I feel could actually be the beginning of my treatment.  From there, I saw a Nutritionist who is also in weight loss clinic. I was tested more. My biggest issue is my weight and feeling like crap all the time. I found out that my hormones are all out of wack! Low testosterone to be the first. I'm severely anemic. And my gallbladder is taking a huge hit!  Yep, I'll be having surgery soon and I'm so glad that I am finally getting answers. 

The plan going forward

First things firsts, remove all things that adds stress to my life.  Which led me to shutting down my Facebook page, not watching certain things on TV and not talking to certain people. What I've realized is that I'm making changes to help better my ability to not react to certain things, learning how to say NO and being okay with that, no matter how it makes someone else feel. I'm just not in a place where I want to over extend myself anymore. 

Second, I've been placed on a strict meal plan. Tell me what you think;
What's not allowed: Fruit juice, corn, potatoes, carrots, rice, pasta, flour, beer, wine or alcohol, oatmeal, grits, potato or chips of any kind, candy, cakes or any sugary items. Avoid alcohol and minimize caffeine to one cup a day. Do not drink juice or any sugary beverages.

What is allowed: 

Cooked Vegetables (measure 1/2 cup uncooked): Broccoli, cauliflower, collard greens, spinach, cabbage, asparagus, onions, string beans and green beans.

Uncooked Vegetables (measure 1/2 cup): Kale, lettuce, spinach, onion, cucumbers, celery, broccoli, cauliflower and red peppers.

Fruit: Grapefruit, Grapes, Apples, Oranges, Strawberries, Cherries and Blueberries. 

Lean Meats (approx. 50 calories per ounce): Steak, Hamburger, Ham, Lamb, Ribs, Roast Beef, Pork, Deli meats (nitrate free) and hot dogs. 

Poultry:  Chicken, Turkey, Chicken Sausage, Ground Chicken and Turkey.

Fish: Salmon, Sardines, Trout, Cod, Halibut, Grouper, Tuna, Lox, Flounder and Sashimi (no rice).

After my first week I've noticed that I have a weakness for snacking. I crave junk food at night. So I am looking for a healthy night time snack. 

My plan:  
Walk 30 minutes a day
Drink 8 bottles of water (and wear a diaper) BOL 😂
More frequent meals to include above list

See there is nothing fancy about this... my goal is to just stay consistent! I plan to document this journey and I'm asking for prayers. I will need them!

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Let's Be Real For A Moment...

03 July 2018

There is so much I want to say and to be honest, I don’t know where to begin. Do you ever feel like you’re doing so much to please everyone but yourself?

Disclaimer: This post is for my fellow Moms and/or Wives.

Guess what? I get tired.

No. I am tired.

Am I allowed to even admit that?!

Rarely do I read or hear about other Moms who really struggle. Let’s be real, I understand that we have to paint a picture of perfection.  I can’t, and I won’t. I struggle. Bad.

With all that is going on, I’m not a complainer. Just not in me. This is my life and even though I struggle from time to time, I wouldn’t trade my life with anyone else’s.

But today, I am struggling with hurt and change. I’m learning to lean on God more and more these days.  Learning to open up more, trust more and it’s not easy. Some may say that I’m difficult, but I say that I am just careful. I’m not afraid to say what I’m feeling. Now don’t confuse that with trusting my feelings. No, no and no! WE don’t do that!

2 Corinthians 10:5
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”

Trusting God is a process. But it’s okay to admit when things aren’t well.  I say these things because I refuse to be victim of my circumstance!

How about you? How are you doing? I want you to be honest with yourself. Are you truly okay? What is the condition of your heart? Let's talk.

5 Things You Probably Don’t Know About Me

21 March 2018

Okay so I'm letting a few cats out of the bag with this one.  Listen, before you read this, just know that this is a NO JUDGEMENT zone! Kay?!  This will give you a glimpse of Kisha that I call my private truths. Things I vowed to really never tell anyone else outside of my husband and close family members. 

Project Restoration: You Are as Healthy as You Want To Be!

15 March 2018

Yesterday morning, I woke in pain. I got out of bed, started to walk and my left leg gave out on me. I was shocked! I wasn't expecting it and didn't feel the pain until I took my first step. Ashon ran to my side to see if I was okay. I was but tried my best to put on the bravest face that I could. Ladies, you know how we do....LOL